oh well..

I guess it's time for me to delete this entire blog and start writing a new one.

things seen,done and eaten

I should take more photos.. It feels so lame to tell about some awesome night-out when all you have left in the morning is 3 crappy pics, missing things and a hungover. I think it's because my camera is HUUGE. OKay.. just big bones.
When Im at home I usually get some pics to post here.. but those arent that interesting.. But I'm gonna do my best! HAHA.


Here's my green tea!! Luv it! Although it's not my ultimate fav one.. The ultimate fav one is green tea with peppermint! Of course it's not available here in F-land. But luckily last Xmas when I flew up in here all the way from my dear San Diego, California, I brought some other green tea bags with me! And no one used them while I was away.


Pampering yourself is a good way to spend a moment.. Like eating some icecream! (NOTICE THE WINNIE THE POOH-MUG!)


This is one monster that stalked me. Until I tried to catch it.


I <3 buying things for myself.(Buying your own Xmas presents = <3 x 1000!)
And I also love lights in the dark<3




From what Ive done,seen and eaten to what I should do!
- make and bake a pizza for the whole family!
- decorate my room (ive been living there for 2 months almost and still its not even close to ready! But not my fault that I dont have all the things I need.. and all the money i need.. and space..)
- gather all the best USA -photos in one folder and add them in Facebook. (But Im lazy and my laptop will overheat under such a hard work!)
- excercise of course! haha.
- read some books and study so Ill outshine all the other candidates in my school entering exams..

oops

woah! It has been a while.. That previous post was posted 25th of october! And now it's november already.
I've not stayed at home the last 3weeks..I've gone out of the house! Phenomenal! No, seriously, it is! You should see this place! Or okay, maybe it's enough that I just explain a few things for you..
In this town, we have..
- 4 grocerystores
- 1 bookstore
- 2 jewellerystores
- 4 shops where you can buy new clothes..
- some agricultural, building, fixing, painting ecc shops
- 3bars/pubs
- 1 giftstore
- some hairdressers
- I think there r 2 banks
- 1 shop where u can buy candles, paper, pens, glue, feathers..all sorts of creative things.. It's like Michaels..
- 2 second-hand stores
- 2 stores that include all sorts of things..cheap stuff..

so.. theres not much one can do here. But anyways, ive seen my friends, gone out a little,done some shopping(candies mainly).. eating out too.. drinking inside and outside..(haha)
oh, and ive read a book! a real book! On Blodes by Joanna Pitman. It was gooood! Maybe I'll try to read some other book too! But finding a good book is nearly impossible here..One poor library. There must be about 50 books in English! The rest is in finnish.. And now it's been closed for ages!(okay for 2 weeks now..) They will re-open 22nd day. Hope there wont be any snow then.. coz Im not going to ride my bicycle that far in snow!!
but gotta admit tho.. the snow CAN be fun.. when theres plenty of it. So much that you have no other choice but to stay inside!

noyesnoyesnoyes

yes. i was bored last night.
we planned some kind of a night out but once again nothing happened.
so i spent the night at home.
with me, tv, movies and edible goods.
now comes the painful part.. What did I watch? Well..
Jane Austen's Mafia (I like Godfather and other mafia movies but at times this movie was actually.. OK. But pretty bad still! It was hilarious to see Billy Burke playing a bad psycho-ish mafia-son..HAHA He was actually kinda goodlooking! And not a quiet dad like in Twilight..)

Waterboy( Adam Sandler's movie.. I usually dont like his movies that much... and this wasnt an exception! so it was pretty bad..)

Spice World the movie (YEAH I KNOW IT'S SO BAD! And yep, this wasnt the first time I watched it.. But I watched it still. Victoria looks so different.. But she is still my favourite. Geri was pretty good too..when I was a SpiceGirls-fan. I never liked Sporty. Maybe cause im so anti-sporty..a real opposite of sporty.. The other Melanie..Melanie B.. Never really liked her either. She was ok but kinda annoying. Emma/Baby was just nice and cute. Victoria forever : DDD)

tonite we'll see who gets voted out of the finnish BB-house. I hope Toni.

BTW, cant wait to see New Moon!! It will be sooooo.. ehmm.. I DONT KNOW WHAT! It will probably be bad like Twilight(the book was soooo much better!) But it will be like water after months of drought! GOING TO THE MOVIES AH! Love it!

your promises for me are just fool's gold.

I watched a movie last night: Overboard.
Starring Goldie Hawn and Kurt Russell.
It was pretty fun movie to watch.
Part of the fun was that it was made 1987 and there was Goldie Hawn..
I like her. She is so much like her daughter, or maybe it's the other way around:her daughter Kate Hudson is like her. They are both so cute. And I looooove Kate's style. Stella McCartney's clothes fit her perfectly. She looks so good in them..
But yeah, the movie was a romantic comedy.YIKES! Now I admitted I watch romantic comedies.. But I think everyone does.. every once in a while at least!
I think I could recommend the movie. But that doesnt mean it's GOOD! It was very average as a movie and as a romantic comedy. But it was fun to watch. Predictable? Sure. Too long? Nah. Boring? Nooo..

(Kurt Russell looks like the late Patrick Swayze.. a little at least.)

My life and your life. Not our life.

I've been doing things lately.
I dont know how to really explain that.
Sometimes it feels like I dont do a shit during the day but sometimes I feel like I've done too much or started too many things and then proceeded to the next one and just given up with the previous things. Like start folding clothes, but then you notice there's a button missing, so you go find a new one and sew it, then you go to put the needle back to its place but the needlebox is all messed up so you need to start arranging it back to its original order..and then you see how much dust there's in the shelf where the needlebox belongs..then u start dusting--.ecc.

Leaving things undone is one of my bad habits.

Anyway, here's something about the last week. (Funny how my week seems to end and start on wednesdays..lol)
10/14 I went to the unemployement office or whatever it's called. It was chilly so I needed a real outdoors outfit. And a big bag for my diplomas and other important papers I needed with me.


Later that day my/our dog got trimmed. Poor dear was so ashamed of herself that she tried to stay hidden the rest of the day!


I've done some shopping this week too. I bought 2 pants.. the purple-striped ones are more like PJs. And the grey ones are actually men's collegepants. But I guess I'm masculine enough to wear them;D hah.


Then one night, I dropped my IKEA-lamp. And of course it was made of glass.. So when it crashed one the floor, it was in a million pieces! And couple of those pieces ended up inside me: my foot, my hand and my finger! DAMNME.
And the next day I wanted to use the lightbulb-wire-part that remained intact. Or so I thought! I switched on the lamp-corpse(I had to break the remaining glass-part of the lamp to get the lightbulb and wire..and how did I break it? Well, do u have stones in your room? Yeah, me neither. So I used my shoes..High-heels to be more exact)

So I switched it on..and it was on maybe for 8seconds and then VPÅSDKOGSFNSJ!! Yeah great.. And it wasnt just the lightbulb that broke! All the electric appliances in my room switched OFF! Luckily the lights remained on.. I was in a tiny shoch for a moment. But later that night my step-dad fixed it. It wasnt that bad one after all. LUCKILY!

I also baked! I'm so proud of myself!! I've never baked buns alone! And now I did! And they turned out very good!! I also baked some Xmas-pastries.. I like them. I need to get a new name for them so I can bake then more often.. I got some weird-ish glaces :after all, it's still 2months until Xmas!( Which sucks this year btw..)








We went to shop a little with my mom and s-dad. Just some second-hand-stores. I got a blue knitted bolero and a beige trench. Maybe I'll get some pics here.. someday.. Maybe when I get a chance to use them ;P

One good thing about being here in Finland is that I dont need to care so much what I wear! I can just wear what I feel like wearing! And when the place is Finland, you will feel lazy..cozy maybe..relaxed sometimes.. This is how I've felt like..

Not that sophisticated, huh? :D

We had our cousin here over the weekend.
I've played some FarmVille in Facebook(yeah how low can a person go..? I dont know can i go any lower..)
Chatted with my friends(very clever indeed since they live here in Eura too..)
Grocery-shopped with my mom.
Listened to the music.
Cleaned my room.
And thought about my future. And thats the big plan I need to concentrate now. SERIOUSLY!

what

Why Lindsay Lohan looks like Johanna Tukiainen??



C'mon!
Wtf...

I'm so fucking not sorry!

Seriously guys.. if something is practically mine..doesnt it mean that no one else gets it and no one else has it. And that something cant go or be someone else's?
I think it means that.

Like when a home is yours.. Your neighbors know that it's your thing..actually it's your fucking house! YOUR.


But yeah, i guess it doesnt always go that way. Sometimes someone breaks in and takes over the whole house.
That just must be the way the life is supposed to be. It can't be just my bad luck that my house attracts too many burglars? Maybe my taste is too good compared to my other skills. Like sense and sensibility.

And anyway, can you ever FULLY TRUST an alarm-system? No matter if it's an inner one or the other one.

Life can suck so bad sometimes.

Not everything is gold that glitters.

"Finnish Project Runway? Muodin huipulle? Really? That's something I need to watch! Asap and every single second of it!"
I've watched it now. I watched part of the first episode: "Nah, maybe they r just trying too hard.. Next week it will be better"
I watched part of the second episode: "Hmm.. Wow..This is so boring. They r so boring. The do everything so wrong.. Maybe they will learn their lesson when they get some feedback from this and last week.."
I watched 80% of the newest,3rd episode: "FOR GOD'S SAKE! Do you know anything about fashion? Or style? Or even about making good TV-programmes? Or if nothing else, just how to entertain?"

THAT PROGRAMME SUCKS A FAT ASS BIG TIME!
1) The judges arent really any GREAT fashion experts.. For example.
Minna Cheung: Used be the host of Inno-programme(they decorated apartments..) and she is supposed to be a designer of 2or+ by Yat. Never heard of...... And the "brand" is her husband's.Plus, SERIOUSLY! It's Heidi Klum whose boots she is _trying_ to fill! MINNA IS NO HEIDI AT ALL!


2) The "Tim Gunn" of the programme is.. ehm.. Jaakko Selin. He's been a JOURNALIST in a couple of magazines/newspapers. He's been an assistant in some programmes..and a host in others. His comments about the outfits are just plain boring or JUST WRONG. GOD!

3) The host of Muodin Huipulle- extra is a stand-up comedian! Plus an actor! And a creative director(according to the wikipedia at least but who knows..) This show is supposed to be about FASHION! STYLE! And this idiot is dressed in hoodies, jeans and suits that dont fit. Did I already mention that he is overweight? And a comedian? And he sucks? There's just NOTHING about him that makes him FIT in that kind of programme! JESUS! It's like making fun of the whole consept of the show having him there..



4) Some of the designers know what they are doing. Some of them even have their own lines already! So WHY they r still there? WHY they were taken in that show? Some designers there are just so lost..

5) A lot of people in that show try to be very.. something.. I have no idea r they trying to be fashionable, stylish, chic,unique or haute couture! Whatever it is, it doesnt work! But gotta admit that SOME of them are trying very hard.


The whole programme is about trying. Trying on the outfits. Trying to make a good outfit. But clearly the contestants arent the only ones that are trying too hard! Or maybe it's just lack of the skill..lack of trying.
Theres so much improvement needed! The lights. The make-up of the judges (for example..). Filming. The places.
Do they really trust that much that everyone who likes Project Runway wants to(and WILL) watch this? This is like ruining a national monument. Killing the last extinct animal. Licking the blood from the ground after the Queen is assassinated. Something disgusting and ruined for good. It will take a while that I'll even try to watch any of the new finnish shows..especially the ones that r based in an american show!

They should get some real names in there.. And I know! Getting some real names COULD BE hard.. maybe impossible! But how about even trying to get some semi-great people from Sweden? UK? Some former models? Or maybe just admit the big mistake they did when they started this show here, give up and let the professionals do the good job!?

This show sucks so bad that I'd rather watch The Mentalist. And thats exatcly what I'm doing right now.

can u see the truck on my back?

On Monday morning my dad asked me to come to his farm. There was some work for me. Yippee. Why Yippee? Well, I think everyone knows that after work comes the money.. So now I got some money. But I'll save them.. I have some trips coming..hopefully.

I worked about 15hrs. The work was kinda hard. It doesnt sound that hard though: cut a cabbage out of the ground and carry it into the big wooden box.. then cut another one. But let me tell you something: it was friggin cold! And the cabbages werent that light. And I usually tried to carry at least 3.. And the box wasn't right next to me. So I had to walk to the box..carrying those cabbages..in that cold weather.. wearing 3 socks, big old boots, one pair of pants and one pair of thick skiing pants, 1 t-shirt, 2 hoodies, 1 woolen shirt and a jacket.. Plus a scarf and THE pipo. Luckily I wasnt on the field alone: with me, there was a middle-aged estonian woman who barely spoke any Finnish.. Luckily my Estonian skills are so excellent! HAH.




After the first day.. I couldnt sleep. Not properly. I need more physical work.(Okay just kidding ma'.. You can do all the raking outside!)

number one

"Im really happy for you, and imma let you finish, but this weekend was one of the best weekends of all time. One of the weekends of all time!"

FRIDAY:
-daytime: normal stuff, shopping and cleaning the house, walking outside with Nappi
-from about 6pm: friends, eating( for example "mexican" food and M&M's), watching TV, chatting, vodka
-nighttime:local pub/bar and some friends plus WINE! and other alcohols..

SATURDAY:
-first hrs: local pub/bar with the friends and the alcoholic drinks
-daytime: sleeping, taking a shower, just relaxing, reading Aku Ankka-comics.
-evening: hanging out with my friend at my neighbor's house(she was house-sitter)
-nighttime: having a good time with my BF and some of his friends at his older bro's flat.. with some good stuff. (the red wine was pretty gross though..)

SUNDAY:
-first hrs: still having a good time with my BF
-daytime: sleeping till 11, taking Nappi for a walk, eating a breakfast, reading Aku Ankka-comics, lighting a fire on my fireplace, watching TV, cooking like a maniac, washing the dishes(ALL THE CUPS AND GLASSES AND FORKS AND KNIVES AND SPOONS AND COOKING POTS ECC= HELL)..
-evening: taking Nappi out for a walk and watching TV and eating..I guess.
-nighttime: the plan is to stay at home ;P

I do it for you, just to suffer the consequences myself!

MY 2 WEEKS IN FINLAND HAVE INCLUDED..

SAUNA!

CLIMBING ON THE ROCKS AND BREAKING THE ÜBERTHICK PANTS OF MINE.


WALKING IN THE FOREST.


PEELING APPLES.


WALKING OUTSIDE AFTER THE RAIN.


WATCHING TRUE BLOOD!


GOING TO THE LIBRARY.


RIDING MY BICYCLE.


(FIRST I HAD TO FIND IT..)


GOING FOR WALKS WITH NAPPI.


BAKING BROWNIES!


MAKING A TUNA-PIE.


COOKING A MACARONI-SAUSAGE-CASSEROLE.


SOME SEMI-SHOPPING: HERE'S MY NEW BUTTON-EARRINGS FROM SEPPÄLÄ(€2,5) AND CANDIES.


(HUGE POSITIVE SURPRISE TO FIND OUT THAT THEY HAVE TRESEMMÉ IN FINLAND!! WOHOO!)

Business class? Not really. No red carpets.

Okay guys.. I've been here in F-land for 2weeks now.
So I guess it's time for me to tell something about those 2weeks.
And things I've done. People I've met. Places I've gone.

Getting back to F-land started in San Diego, CA, USA.
I woke up at 5 after about 3 hrs of sleep. Still, as I was walking out of the house I had as my home for over a year, I felt like I was just going somewhere, just to come back. Soon. Maybe after 2 weeks. Now it has been 2 weeks. I'm still here. And not going anywhere. But I'm still waiting that suddenly I get an email with the tickets and just print them and go. But thats not gonna happen until I have money to buy those tickets. And thats not gonna happen until I find a job. Which is pretty unlikely at the moment.
The flights were OK. I had a windowseat at every plan I was in. The guy next to me(he was american, but originally from somewhere else)was very nice, even though we didnt talk that much. On the european flight I had the whole row of seats for myself! HAH. Another thing that the planes had in common, in addition to the window seat they provided for me, was the they were all BROKEN when we were supposed to start boarding! Navigation,fuel tank, engine.. So not just something small or irrelevant. In München, at the gate to the plane to Helsinki, I encountered some finnish people. A little younger than me. Girls. And guess what -they hated me! They looked at me, saw my american football team -shirt and started talking. LOUD AND IN FINNISH..Like I was unable to understand them. They complained how all americans think they r something special and go around the places wearing all kinds of shirts that yell "AMERICA".. And other stuff. They talked sooo much shit about the US. And then, one girl said: "But it would be so great to go there! To the US!" And all the other girls agreed.






For a while when we were landing I was happy for a second. It tooked so beautiful. It meaning the cloud next to us.



The F-land that looked at me back from the window was just.. plain. But I guess that's the beauty in F-land. Being plain. No extra stuff. Not too many ppl. Nothing too fancy. Being "too" fancy is for Russia and its people. Thats just something I've heard.





In Helsinki I got my bags and started waiting for my sister. I bought a bottle of somekind of blueberry-soda-ish drink.. It cost me €3! It tasted bad. And when the checkout counter's lady said "Kolme euroa."(=3euros.) I thought(in side my head..or so I thought!) "Oh shut up.." but it turned out I said it out loud. Nice. It felt so unnatural to hear other people talking Finnish. It felt like..like everyone was wearing the same "unique" necklace/shirt/skirt. That "unique" item you got from your grandma and agreed to wear it just to please her.

I spent the next 2(?) days at my sister's friend's parent's place. It was very nice to see my sister. But all the time all I did was longed back to So-Cal and my people. Slept. Ate. Watched TV. Read some Aku Ankka-comics. And even tried to read some manga she had. At least I tried!
Me and my sister took a train from Tikkurila to Harjavalta. The man who checked our tickets was a great positive surprise! He was talkative and almost actually funny! The female next to me, on the other hand, was SO finnish! When she needed to get pass me(she had the window seat this time..) she just stood up and waited. Then looked at me very intensively.. And I gave up, and let her pass. Although, letting her just stand there until she would open her damn mouth and tell what she needs/wants, did cross my mind..
To my hometown I got on saturday about 3 o'clock. I was so happy. So damn happy. I knew I would be happy to see Nappi, but I was even happier. And the happiness havent faded away.
Still, dont get me wrong, but I'm not happy. I'm extremely happy to be with my baby again but.. Well, there's something I wish I could change.