Thank you Walt Disney.

Everyone knows how the Princess-stories go. Right? At least everyone should know how they end. They end happily. Or so we are taught to believe. "And then they lived happily ever after" But people do lie. The parents do it all the time when their kids are young(er than them, which is always). Or did your parents tell you the Truth? Mine didn't. And the stories I've heard from other sources have the same message to tell: "Then they lived happily ever after". Can it be that easy! But it's not impossible, is it? You know, the sun shines after the storm or something. And stuff like that. So everyone should get good things happening after a great struggle. Like a bad apple. Or an evil stepmother. Or a malicious spell. Or living with 7 old dwarfs.

Why is that little boys arent that into Princess stories? Some little dudes know one thing that's got a Princess in it: NINTENDO! But what's the thing there? You save the Princess. Of course. Even some basic ideas are kept the same! But what happens when the Princess Peach is saved? Well you get rewarded. Maybe a kiss or money. Why girls are told that after a Prince Charming will marry the Princess he saves? Is that destiny that leads the P.C to the right Princess..The One Princess. How many guys dream of getting married anyway? There really must be about 10billion frogs for one P.C. And how many guys even select the Princess Peach character if they can choose between Mario, Luigi and Peach?

Why Luigi and Mario don't wanna marry Peach? Are they gay? Or just Italians? Italian guys get married!!! Eventually.. At least they are being honest and use their real names! Not like this mysterious Prince Charming. Where is he from? I don't know why but I get a sort of "a brit" feeling when I think about the word "charming". And not only because of the following picture:

Never saw any tattoos on those Disney Princes. But those are taken anyway.. Never seen a fat Prince Charming either! Or a one with long hair! Or a Princess saving another Princess! And the Princess never says "No, go back..You are not good enough.. Let me sleep another 50years while waiting for the One." Is that what real-life girls/women are supposed to do as well? Just take what you can get?( The Princesses are never fat either. Or bald. Or weird(even though some of them have been verbally abused and/or lived in a castle all alone and/or lived with a dragon/7 dwarfs..)

Has there ever been a story where the Princess has to chase the Prince? And say "Hey jerk! You saved me! Now you have to marry me!" Was Posh Spice aka Victoria Adams saved by David B? I've never heard such a story where Princess makes the Prince fall in love with her. It just happens.( And that's how it sometimes works in the modern world too, but things may get stuck here, since chasing The P.C is not an option.)



Why there are no Prince-movies.. I'd LOOOVE to see one! Like stories how they grew up and how they knew that this Princess was the one they had to rescue and then marry! Did they know what would happen after they rescued the Princess? Did someone pay them to rescue or/and marry the girl? Are there any Prince Charmings in the real world? As you can see from the picture above, the Prince(/David) has a pretty cool horse. White and strong. Princes don't usually come to rescue Princesses with an old donkey.( Princess Fiona was rescued by Shrek..who arrived with a donkey. But he was a monster. But at least they lived happily..)So is a cool vehicle a sign of a Prince? Is that the reason why guys(and the little dudes) like cars? Cars are modern horses. Sounds pretty self-evident to me. Never seen a guy riding a horse. And doing it with pride. (And now we are talking about straight guys)

Someone once told me, that if the Prince Charming and the One can be considered to be the same person.. He is no doubt a real gay-man. Who knows, maybe that "and they lived happily ever after" means that they have an arrangement(domestic partnership) and a lover for both. So maybe those Princess-stories are true. Since it doesnt make it a lie when you just leave out all the details.

So don't worry ladies, if you think that guy with million bad habits and an old Toyota(or his mom's minivan) don't seem to match the description of the Prince Charming.




So enjoy.

you, me and the lies.

I came back home from my minitrip a couple of hours ago. (Some pics and text coming any day now..)
And realized that I was kind of a homeless person the last 8days. It felt good for a while. For a short while actually. So I guess I'm kinda happy to be home again. But it's not that easy really.
Because this is not going to be my home for long. Yep, I'm moving. For a few weeks to another room, and then to another continental. And thats whats fucked up right now! It doesn't make any sense. I feel more home here than I've felt in most of my official homes ever. Maybe it's just that here I can do almost whatever I want(Okay, not really, I still need to mind my manners and I'm not really doing everything I dream of). Or maybe it's just that I like to be here.. and that I can be more myself here. Or maybe it's just that I like to express my opinions(some people might call this activity 'complaining').
Some people might wonder: "Why in hell it's easier to be more myself here than it was in F-land?" Well, here I have met some new people and I need to be me with them, and let them know who I am. I don't need to worry about things they have heard from other people who know/"know" me. When I go back to F-land, a lot of people will ask me questions but a lot of people will just stay quiet and let the others ask the questions. Or then, they don't even care, but I will end up telling them anyways. And that's not a good thing, I don't like forcing people to talk to me or to listen to my talk. Maybe I should write a short book about my experiences and let everyone interested read it. There it would be: the truth.


Telling the truth isn't that easy really. Or letting everyone know it. So I guess 4 different books would be a better idea. Not everyone needs to know everything, right? But people talk to each other, so the truth would come up eventually. Telling the truth would be pretty impossible really. Because I dont know whats the truth. And which things are lies? Who really cares and what really happened?
Does the truth really matter? Does it really? When we say and ask things, EVERY-FUCKING-ONE has an idea what they would like to hear. Like when people say 'I love you'. Do people really say it just because they wanna hear it? Not because they wanna hear 'I love you too'/ 'I love you more' or smt. And when people small-talk to each other "How are you?"..Do those persons really care? I think 99,99% of them DONT. I wish I was wrong. That vast majority just wants to say something to show the other that he/she has been noticed. That question's got only one acceptable answer: Telling that you are fine/good/well/whateverthatmeansthatyouareok. Once again, it might be just my idiotic cultural background,that tells me that 'you talk only when you have something to say'. So if you ask something, it means you really wanna hear. There's nothing wrong with that really. That's logical, isn't it?
Still it seems so impossible for me to let go and just go with the local "It"-thing: not caring. It's not my fault that I don't believe in faking. I sure fake things and lie too, but when it comes to interacting with people I _care_ about: faking isn't really the "It"-thing. This makes me wonder, do other people think like this too? So the people who clearly fake things when talking to me, they don't really care? Or are they just local people? But there are different locals too. Some talk normally, some of them have to be forced to talk and some don't talk at all. This is pretty black-n-white-thinking, there's not really any rules like these. Maybe it's just that the people who care, say it. And whatever is the outcome, they stand straight behind their words. They care, even when the other says nothing, obviously lies or something else. But those who care as well, say it. Since the most of us can talk. 99,99% may not care of random people, but everyone's got at least one person they care!
Sometimes, that one person is yourself. And those are the persons who seem to care only about themselves. Is that a surprise really? Haha, no! Selfish, self-centered people like themselves! And everyone around them should notice it. It, the truth. So, the selfish people are the most honest people really.(Or maybe they are the loneliest people and they have no one else to focus on.) They don't need to think what kind of truth they should tell the others. They just answer the questions asked if they want or have time. And if they don't.. well, you get the picture. Don't you?
To mess up things a little, sometimes some people lie to protect the people they care.
But when a person doesn't even bother to lie? It can't be a good thing.
What about those small-talk 'how are you's then? Well, at least they talk. And they lie as they ask. But would it be nicer to say "hello, i dont really care how are you but sure, tell me!" I think it would be. Sometimes. Maybe sometimes just for a change. Lucky me, the change is coming. Soon no one will ask me how am I doing. No one will lie to me and say it's really nice to see me. No one will ignore me in an evil way. Everyone around me will notice me. But they will either talk to me because they care, or they will let me be because they wanna let me be.
Very rarely,( once in the last 20years to be exact) I seem to force people to talk to me, lie to me and ignore me. It feels like a thousand knives stabbed through my heart and lungs. A lot worse, probably. That's just an estimate.
So please, let me hear your lies one more time.