fuckfuckfuck

I'm in fucking F-land!
It's damn cold.
There r only about 10 TV-channels.
And most of them are Finnish..some are Swedish.
Everyone talks Finnish.
Everyone is Finnish.
And im so sick of all this already.
Can someone just come here and take me back to San Diego.
I need foreign friends.
I need life.
I need motivation.
I left my motivation to do things in So-Cal.
I have nothing to do here..
I'm still in Vantaa and I'm not going to Eura until saturday..

I cant wait to see my Nappi though..
and get back into my room..
see all my things there.
And my family.
But thats about it.
Thats not a life: seeing old things and spending a couple of happy days with your family. Then it just gets aaaaaall back to normal. To Status Quo.
I left too many things behind.

I'm not sure how I can handle this.
I need to get out. But I cant.
I guess I dont wanna go out.
It would just make me really realize what the fuck is going on..
And what is it thats going on over here? Well let me tell you if you dont know yet:
I'M IN FINLAND.

I'll try to post some pics. I try to take some so-called good pictures..
Maybe I can cheat myself to believe that maybe its not that bad after all.
Im in denial.
COOLIO!