change

Change is such a horrible word.
I dont usually find myself in a situation where it's a good thing.
Very often some homeless people ask if I have any change. Some are 'clever' enough to make up some kind of story to hold on while harassing me. "I need just a couple of bucks to buy a train/bus/trolley-ticket!" - "I'm hungry and I need to buy food!" - "Why lie? I want beer!"
I even have a funny birthday card about change( and Barack Obama). And he was/is all about change. Changing the US and A to a better place and make everyone happy.

My change isn't like Obamas. It's not like homeless people's.
I have to admit though, that there are a couple of similarities, like "I wanna make the world better place" Well, who doesnt! Since the person who says this lives in this world too..and in this case it's me who's speaking. I could use some change too. Money-change. But I'd need a lot of change to get what I want. And what I want, is not some kind of bus/train/trolley-ticket. But my plan of making myself happy does include a ticket. Where exactly? I have no idea.

I'm not gonna tell anyone about these plans. They have to read them here. It's gonna be so much easier anyway. Since I know a lot of people who wanna know or just ask(and dont really care). I can just tell them to read my blog, and thats what they will do, if they really wanna know.

So I've found a school where I wanna get in. And to my own surprise, it's in F-land! It's not the easiest school to get in.. Or so I've heard. But I'm gonna try anyway. Next year. So during the next couple of months, I'm just gonna work. I also wanna do some of these things:

- see my friends and so-called friends
- see my family and relatives
- go to walk in one of our own forests
- cut down a tree
- dye my hair( nice dark/dirty blond roots <33333*sarcasm*)
- lose weight. (No buts and ifs)
- spend a lot of time with my loved one: Nappi aka Napa , the biggest reason why I allowed this change to happen
- redecorate my room with new pictures
- be a nicer person
- work and earn money
- go to a cruise to Sweden
- improve my Swedish skills
- improve my French skills
- improve my Italian skills
- improve my Russian skills
- read a book
- eat finnish candies!
- eat my mom's home-made (finnish) food!!!
- ride my bicycle like I've never rode it before!
- maybe start writing my blog in Finnish..
- show the animals/people I like how much I really care
- go to see my friends' apartments
- go to see my friend's baby
- go to shop at a local supermarket and pack my own groceries in the bags I brough in with me
- cry and cry and cry
- get wasted
- help someone
- go to sit in a sauna(ugh..I dont like the place really)

and a lot of other things.
But as you can see, the most important things are missing:
-go to the movies
-wander around in a local mall
-speak English to local people(in F-land they will throw me out of the store if I try that: "What u think u are!? American? This is fucking Finland!")
-meet a lot of new people
-meet a lot of foreigners
-chat with random people on the street
-give a couple of bucks/cents/dimes to a homeless person
-see homeless people(just mentioning.. seeing them is not important at all!!)
-take the trolley to places
-shop!!
-do some quality shopping at some quality stores
-eat at McDonalds, BurgerKing,Subway..
-get drinks/smoothies from CoffeeBean and tealeaf , Jamba Juice & Starbucks
-order pizza/pasta online and get it delivered behind my door
-be in the US

This is gonna suck.
In a way.

Tomorrow I need to do some tiny tiny tiny shoppings. I'll show u if I find what I'm looking for. And I need to take CDs and books back to library. Print my tickets(=a paper where is the secret number that should be enough..Let's see did Cultural Care give me the tickets or not.) Go to downtown and have a farewell-dinner with my amazing hostparents. Or well.. friends. They are not like parents really. More like good sister and good brother. Oh or well..a good sister and her good boyfriend and visa versa. (After all, they r married and calling them a sister and a brother..ehm.. not working)

Btw, I was in L.A -area yesterday. But I guess I'm not gonna have time to post about that tomorrow.. It has to wait till.. wow.. till I'm F-land I guess.
But I can tell you that I saw some famous places..and faces!
Jay Manuel!!
To mention the best one<3
I was so stoked during and after I saw him.
And gosh, he is so pretty. Unreal.